Eight weeks ago I was blessed with a precious gift. A sweet baby girl. She was a ‘surprise’ pregnancy and definitely a wrench thrown in my life plan. She was born at a difficult time in my life; my dad (the reason I moved to California a year ago to help take care of) passed away exactly two weeks before she made her debut. Being nine months pregnant while putting your dad on hospice then watching him slowly die is something I would not wish on ANYONE! It was awful. Like, completely indescribable, god AWFUL. I share this not for sympathy or excuses but because it is a huge motivating factor for me and my weight loss plan/next adventure.
I don’t want to lose the 12 pounds of baby weight because I hate my body or feel post-baby body shamed. In fact, this is the first time after I’ve given birth that I wasn’t 20 plus pounds over my starting weight!
My motivation comes from the fact that I want to get healthy; with my mind and my body. I’m trying not to focus too much on what the scale says and instead focus on how my body feels. I want to feel strong, tough, and pretty much like a badass. Emotionally and physically.
Grief weighs me down daily. It’s scary. Days before my dad died I asked him, “what on earth am I going to do without you?!” His response was, “Live.” I have carried that in my heart every single day since he has been gone. It’s hard. I try. Countless people say that exercise has saved them during difficult times. So as I sat in my Post-Partum haze I thought to myself, get up, get moving, get healthy, and get fit. Yoga and meditation have always helped with my anxiety so this fitness goal just seemed like a perfect idea.
This is where my next adventure comes into play with my already in progress learning-how-to-cooking feat. I have learned in the short time of being in my 30’s (insert Hubby’s laugh) that what you put into your body and soul is so important! It can’t be all tequila and McDonald’s! (I know, I was shocked too). So I will be making and eating healthy meals (any suggestions are greatly appreciated) for the majority of my meals. I’m sorry but I can’t completely cut out Del Taco and Chrissy Teigen’s recipes. It’s a lot of cheese and carbs but life’s too short to NOT enjoy that deliciousness occasionally. Have you tried her new cookbook yet??? OMG GET IT NOW!!! Cravings: Hungry for More is out now so do yourself and everyone you cook for a favor and go order this book. Chrissy can never steer you wrong, I swear!
Cooking healthy meals have gotten a lot easier for me. The family H.A.T.E.S when I use sweet potatoes over regular potatoes and the Hubs doesn’t understand why recipes can’t just have a regular fried egg on it! I have been using Clean Eating Made Simple cookbook as a staple for meals this past month. Easy recipes, whole foods, and can use for every meal- even snacks.
I have also restarted my yoga journey. I am so behind on my practice and out of shape. But that is nothing on how hard the 6 week Bikini Body program I started has been! Oh my god, my core is so freakin’ weak! Well, was weak because I am getting stronger every day. I am currently on my second week of the program. I haven’t seen any physical improvements yet, but my head is clearer, I am happier, I have more energy, and I don’t collapse after every set anymore! And to me, that is a BIG DEAL!
I don’t know where this will take me, but like everything that I hope for, I hope it takes me somewhere exciting. I am scared to post things like this because the fear of failure is real and scary. To do it publically is even worse! However, in the end, this is for me. My grieving process. My recovering. My journey.
So here we go!
7 weeks post-partum and starting of 6 week Bikini Body program.
ALSO!! Here is a yoga sequence that I have been using since I figured out how incredibly weak my core is! ENJOY.